I wouldn't clean myself up till I had to

In the school hall, excited about the coming weekend drunkenness, God set my eyes on Nathan, who would be at a church function as I was in a drunken stupor. God said I'd be like him. I mocked God You're crazy! Then I was injured. In my healing, I was in church- my wheelchair- reflecting over the trouble I'd missed had I obeyed God & cleaned up. Granny refused meds, so I was always wrathful, so I harassed Dad, so I harassed Granny. She was taking me to rehab then going for chemo, my 10th yr rehab, which I hated. God told me to quit school & write when I was 16. Granny: "NO!" I didn't. I think that's why I got so depressed. 1 month before my 18th birthday, I unbuckled & prayed for death. Then God heard me. He hears the prayers He very oft doesn't answer yes. His no doesn't mean He doesn't hear you!

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