my ambition

Psalm 131:1 ► Lord, my heart is not haughty, nor my eyes lofty: neither do I exercise myself in great matters, or in things too high for me. My college Grammar professor liked my writing so much she said i don't need a college degree to be published. So 20 years i wrote, making very little money. Then my aspiration became a teleminister. Psalm 131:1. Lord, my heart is not haughty — Lifted up with that pride of which I am accused, as thou, the searcher of all hearts, knowest; nor mine eyes lofty — Either to look with envy on those that are above me, or with disdain on those that are below me. Where there is a proud heart there is commonly a proud look. Neither do I exercise myself in great matters — Hebrew, ולא הלכתי בגדלות, neither have I walked in great things, &c. It neither is, nor hath been my practice to attempt, or arrogate to myself, any thing above my degree, place, and calling, or to affect worldly glory or domination. I am studying verses for my future career as a teleminister. i'll discuss verses with my thoughts & notes. 131:1-3 The psalmist's humility. People say my writing is for attention as it is for the infilling of the Spirit. i love it when the Spirit touches me. Believers encouraged to trust in God. The psalmist aimed at nothing high or great, but to be content in every condition God allotted. Humble saints cannot think so well of themselves as others think of them. After my 'unbuckling for a 6 mon coma, 4 mon wheelchair, decade 93to03 rehab, nerve damage, bad eyes, short term memory, & limp, i was retired. The love of God reigning in the heart, will subdue self-love. Where there is a proud heart, there is commonly a proud look. I spend a lot of time glorying God. It feels like a duty. To know God and our duty, is learning sufficiently high for us. It is our wisdom not to meddle with that which does not belong to us. He was well reconciled to every condition the Lord placed him in. He had been as humble as a little child about the age of weaning, and as far from aiming at high things; as entirely at God's disposal, as the child at the disposal of the mother or nurse. 'pray im a fantastic, superb, wonderful, marvelous, outstanding teleminister. We must become as little children, Mt 18:3. Our hearts are desirous of worldly things, cry for them, and are fond of them; but, by the grace of God, a soul that is made holy, is weaned from these things. The child is cross and fretful while in the weaning; but in a day or two it cares no longer for milk, and it can bear stronger food. I pray to grow into a womderful teleminister. Thus does a converted soul quiet itself under the loss of what it loved, and disappointments in what it hoped for, and is easy whatever happens. When our condition is not to our mind, we must bring our mind to our condition; then we are easy to ourselves and all about us; then our souls are as a weaned child. And thus the psalmist recommends confidence in God, to all the Israel of God, from his own experience. It is good to hope, and quietly to wait for the salvation of the Lord under every trial. Please pray for my speech impairment. Lord, my heart is not haughty - Though this is charged upon me; though I may have said things which seem to imply it; though this might appear a just inference from my conduct - yet I am conscious that this is not my real character. What I have said was not the result of ambition. My ambition to be a great teleminister is also a dream. Nor mine eyes lofty - I am conscious that I am not ambitious and aspiring - as I am accused of being. What I have said is not the result of such a feeling, nor should such a charge be brought against me. Neither do I exercise myself - Margin, as in Hebrew, walk. I do not walk about among such things; I do not pry into them; I do not meddle with them. What I have said or done is not, as has been said concerning me, the result of a meddlesome and interfering spirit. It may seem to be so; my own consciousness tells me it is not so. The interpretation put upon my conduct may be natural; but I am conscious to myself that it is not the right interpretation. I don't feel like praying to be a marvelous teleminister is too high with God on my side. lu 23:42-43, rom 10:9-10, ac 2:38< those are some verses i want billions doing. 'pray im a fantastic, superb, wonderful, marvelous, outstanding teleminister. In great matters, or in things too high for me - Margin, as in Hebrew, wonderful. The word wonderful would apply to matters suited to excite astonishment by their vastness, or their unusual nature - as prodigies or miracles; and then, great and lofty truths. It would apply also to things which might be regarded as far above the capacity of a child, or of one in obscure life, and with slight advantages of education; and, as above suggested, it may have been the accusation brought against him, that, in respect to public matters, matters of state - or to the more elevated doctrines of religion - he had manifested a spirit unbecoming one in early years, and of humble rank, and that this indicated a desire to meddle with matters which he could not understand, and which could not pertain to him. i want to get 1000s of people to pray with me. 'pray im a fantastic, superb, wonderful, marvelous, outstanding teleminister. He was conscious, he says, that he was not actuated by that spirit. Ps 131:1-3. This Psalm, while expressive of David's pious feelings on assuming the royal office, teaches the humble, submissive temper of a true child of God. https://www.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=2918248137191750990#allposts