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I7Sep 19, 20 Took out trash after expresso then coffee. Blogged susan. Showered. Told Susan sis is against my x porn star dream till i told her im 45 & only had sex 4 times. Ive asked prayerrequests worldwide. Pray im a world renowned porn star. 94-20, i prayed to be a writer worldwide. Then the other day i woke to the fact ive only had sex 4 times in 45 yrs. It all started my 16m birthday when Dad said you cant drive junk & date & girl crazy all i could afford was junk. Now i dream of being a world renowned porn star to advertise my LULU.COM bookstore worldwide. Aamof, 225 women haverejected me. 12m, i learned about the birds & bees when my neighbor showed me xxx taboo2. Now i want to be a x porn star. Pray i am. I love making love to women. 16-31, it was abominable women wouldnt date me bc all i could afford was junk.i waa upset. It grew 23 mons till i unbuckled and prayed for death for a tbi 6 month coma. 2.14.93-6.30.93. Graduation from high school brought me out my coma. I very soon started writing in rehab. 93-20, ive been a writer. My bookstore is Michael Dee house at lulu.com. it's my dream to advertise it in Superbowl commercials, several at a time. 16-31, gay till i made love to a woman. Thwn a few more times showed me im a hetero. I weep over that. At school, i had many more f friends than i did m friends. But knowing they wouldn't date a junk driver turned me OFF. i was doing well with the girls in my apt., so Mom moved to aretirement home. Ive never used protection, but have had many blood tests since my last sex 18 yrs. My cuz was talking about how he hogged the covers with his lover. I said im 45 & have NEVER slept overnight with a woman. 16-31, bc of what Dad said, i thought i had to drive a shiny sports car to date. Since i could not afford 1, i hated girls. Im 45 & been a swm all my life bc of what Dad said. Since i so found i sooo love making love to women, i want to be a world renowned porn star. Pray i am. Now every time i go out to eat i get the salad bar. All i want to do is make love to women. My ALF roomie had hiv, but over my 5 months never showed 1 sign besides a nonstop frown. He was agnostic. This dream i have to be a porn star will help me reach people through my other dream, Superbowl commercials. The style of your writing is most wanted at different times. Most bestsellers take a decade to have a breakthrough. Sep 19. 20 I need a smart woman to keep me under control. After $2600 was stolen, i was in shock & gave my password to a thief. I want to be a x porn star, always making love to strangers. Making 1000s a week. Eating salads+walking all the time. Inner depression, i need stimulants. Can u believe i told my ex's mom about my lack stimulation & she planted that seed. Use stimulants. Her daughter was head over heals for me. In my coma, she refused to let murses touch me but her. High school, grr she was so territorial, so i start clubbing+macking college girls. She heard about me & the quarterbacks gf somehow. He did too. Oddly, he wasnt mad. From friends' reports i made love to so many women. Now in an 18 year deficiency i miss sex so, so, so much. Thats why i ask everyone to pray i become a world renowned porn star 50 years always satisfyingly famous. I have several diaries in my bookstore about being gay 16-31 till i started making love to women. I told Justin i was gay in the late 90s & he said he refused to have a gay brother. But he started sex 12 y/o with a 21f. At 16, i hated girls till i, 31m, made love to a 35f. I always went out planning on sex, but i drove junk. Justin drove a shiny Ford Probe. Now i ask all people to pray i become a x porn star world renowned. Sep 21 20 With liz's coming tomorrow i decided to solicit bookstores if the sun aint up & if it is to read on the balcony. The firemans really showing a victim very much care. I understand that, i hate being away from the 1 i care for. I have always LOVED to read. My diary is slowly growing. Going through the window 93 for a 6 month coma seemed to plot my career. As people read my diaries, they'll grow in interest for my day to day living. I market my bookstore if the sun is dim, read if bright, & on breaks write in my diary. 100s times already I've prayed to be a world renowned porn star selling $5 videos to onliners. I have the look. My shrink said im so good looking bc of my big lips. I keep picturing my face on the porn box. After all, ive gone without sex 18 yrs. If i could make millions to get my books in every bookstore in the world, on TV, in junk mail, ill have enough for my 2k passenger cruise ship. The best money i made was cutting firewood. I couldve turned that into something big. Me & a pal cut grass. If it were individually, itd made just as much. But the attraction of books was so strong, powerful, since the 2nd grade i knew booms would be my livelihood. How you feel about us is your feeling. Im not honna twist your arm. The 1st millisecond divided by 9 i saw the back of your head i knew you were the 1 & 3 times, 2.9, 3.5, 3.13, you were. The most special terms in my life. The 117 bookstore addresses i emailed took 12 hrs. Mom had to get me up. I was sleeping on my lazyboys arm. Then i emailed more bookstores then saw im trying to sell them ebooks. My whole day was wasted! Me & sis are going to the beach tomorrow. We 1nc tried to build a real castle in a ballast pit. I made a VERY EXTREMELY long list of classifieds ill later reach. Sis will be here tomorrow evening. I want you to meet her, a social worker. If theres juice, ill work on my diary. Alex got a degree on pcs & works at a racetrack. I like writing down principles as much as diary. I love them both. I also love reading the firemen book. He is caring for a victim. Her dad wants a relationship between the 2. She has a toddler boy & he has a jealous girl. After you & i consolidate, ill keep searching for free classifieds &, or forums. Our ebooks $.99 & makes $.43 per copy sold. I can advertise it & suggest my othet books be looked at. There're links. I have pics of me in a wheelchair im sure will help my pitch. I like Instagram links. I have 1 with a detailed bio. Its my gmail signature. 9.21.20 Barber Cat is my new barber childish 30f. Miami i think. In walking distance. Alex Jack & Coke. Ray & Mom are getting close. Liz's 2 night stay is soon over. UGA tees are what i wear for Liz but today tb rays tee. Reading 16/6 24 mons was my biggest education. Wd decade was also a big education. Writers Digest. Diary is what i like writing. Pills in mail came for the 1st time. I need a Debbit. I average 17 classifieds. Exercising my brain is my thing. I put Susan in charge of our Wedding. Moms paying back a $2600 3 yr loan by covering the wedding & home. Reading was Educational but now all i do is place ads. Chocolate is my aphrodesiack. McDonald's is my fav but too fattening. Rich Herrin hates fast food. Ray said college degrees aint what they used to be. Freshman Senior mentality was mixed up in high school. Sitcom tbi is my dream after my unrelated porn job. Diaries are fun. 9.23.20 Eye appt was long awaited today. Dialated eyes afterward. 1 ma'am 2 ma'am i attached ma'am to the mumber fingers every time peripheral. Aunt Pat doesnt sound in good health. With me pray for her. 2 wks glasses is the predicted wait. Blindness is bliss? Outback salad is what Mom ordered. Porn dream prayer. Im praying all the time. Im getting fat. more tests coming for my eyes. $400+ glasses, my bill was gallopije. Pat librarian retired & i LOVE books. Dream job porn, i think about it daily. a most most most wonderful book:"I Love Susan" at lulu.com-------------- lulu.com> search for "michael dee house" 9.24.20 I am trying to sort out my diary. Its tedious. Liz+Alex headed home a few hrs ago, my glasses are on their way, pls pray for their very early arrival. It's 11:07 & my cell has a 34% charge. I got up 3:45a. Mom said i have the day off. Im trying to limiit my diary to my cell. I have mailed our book ad to 454 women & about 10 classifieds. I just heard mom tell ray we may drive over there this weekend. Dr phil is my fav show. I like alcohol & thc a lot. Liz quit them & took up eating. Alex is smart. I hope you visit me while mom is in al. But keep it secret. Mom hates trump & says she didnt tell me to vote for biden. She did. Another coworker quit. Her work is very stressful. At 4:30p, i solicit our book again. OWN is my favorite channel. My step mom was allergic to morphine. I love it. I love Chinese food. Liz got to go to cocoa beach. I have instagram on my gmail signature. I love you, Michael We didnt get to go play pool. Momis on the phone in her room office. I like salt, pepper, & hot sauce. I wish we had a Chinese restaurant neighbor, but mom wouldn't let me eat there. I imagine liz will be home 5:30. I watch dr phil all day everyday. I love to eat. Thats soon. After my meal, i reckon ill post more ads. I want to write more self help. It was fun on the beach yesterday. Im praying for Pat. I want to read but write more. I love you, Michael Sept 25 Woke 3a worried bc blogger.com didnt let me on all day yesterday, changed pssword, updated, & got everything ok. Mom is about to order lunch, i miss SUSAN, i told liz she should come thanksgiving, sat on the balcony & read, want thc, excited about my unknown lunch, posted the book ad 32 times, watched Dr. Phil, showered, heard a cat, can hear construction, want to go to the beach, want to eat at beachside bar & grill, want peppery steak, & my sweet tooth is ailing me. 9.26 In mom's belly i was turned around backwards, Dad thought i was a alien, we all stayed at Granny & Papa's Lay bc they were near the hospital, i charged my cell some, i couldn't mail my diary from my cell, im eager to see my sis for the beach, i love Dr. Phil, i violated my mass mail limit, sis thinks im a bi, 225 f haverejected me, i put Instagram on my gmail signature, i want fast food, but im getting married, i want to be an x porn star, i posted many ads on Instagram, i want to go out to eat, i set my alarm to mass mail, im so excited about my glasses, i found mass mailing much faster than classifieds, i posted many prayer addresses, found you are born female then develop male traits, my development was thwarted when i turned 16 & Dad said you cant date in junk. Junk was all i could afford, i dont like but use mycane, i see a man walking around the pool, i blog SUSAN, i showered 4a, miss Monterey Lakes, proved drs wrong 500b times, told mom to live in Alabama & me here, made email addresses, have an x porn star dream, a mom on tv lost a son, so she took a fetus. I posted many addresses my prayers/ aspiration to be a porn star & finance my books' commercials & to be a billionaire with a 2000 passenger cruise ship to live on with a board of marketers to turn my 82 books into billions of dollars. I'll need to exercise more & toughen my heart, be more callous. Next week, we may go SEE uncle David, aunt Pat is in bad health. Wedding plans are being made on "90 Day Fiance." I asked Mom if Susan watches this, she could be getting ideas. I didnt get a backlash. This diary wouldnt mail to my desktop. I got mustard on my UGA tee & had to put another UGA tee on. I had good jumbalia from Jack & Harry's. my limp is why our food delivery gets turned upside down. I love Impractical Jokers, but had to take a break.