May 30

cv, bc, gf, bf, poj, pwad, 225r, f, vv, bff, fl, UGA Tn game, not as thrilling now that im an FSU fan, i have been in fl 29-45, 16 yrs, i lived in Statham 12-29, 17, years, i debunked UGA, now i hope & pray FSU wins, i gave UGA tons hints to win Rose Bowl & they still lost, so i curse them, i think Kirby must be proud, Tx just beat Fl 41-38, i watched & did not like that, i want all fl teams to win, that is all new, i rooted against Fl a long time, hoping mom is answering my request by getting me my f which is badly needed, i heed a f badly, life goes on, want thc & vape pen; 3 tokes a night, sleep like a baby, thats a most appealing idea, it's a prayer & desire, this diary is my dream career, i love working on it, i love reading it in a month, but in years i forget the doings, in years, the diaries aren't as interesting, drank all my Miller Lite, 4, it took all day, it was good during the game, i have Ultra in the drawers, Windmoor diagnosed my ptsd, they already knew i had it i guess from my old medical records, i wonder how bad it is, i saw some very bad cases in my therapy, im so thankful i found the UGA game, it was on channel 6, i cant find the fsu boxscores on the Web, thats annoying, i found all kinds of fsu apps, vacation means i get the tv, thats so lovely, i love sports, mom doesn't, i wish i were watching the game at Gary's bar, but it turned into a restaurant, & it's 8 hours away, it was in my elementary school town, yesterday's article was 2558 words, i worked on it all day, my Bible papers averaged 2k words back when i went to church, but that was too long, mom calls to say she made it to ala, im so happy, i wish she'd stay, i love aloneness, i was obviously born to be a hermit, where is my woman? mom doesnt sound like she is looking for her, we both witnessed life goes on, it's time for me to get my woman, i saw a young 1 my age at the pool, swf, she will be my bride & to pay me for a loan mom will fund our wedding & honeymoon, i cant wait till that happens, i want to live off my writing, i dont like the taken, they belong to somebody else, it means unavailable, not my property, i say that again, get me a single woman, mom doesnt sound compliable, i also want her to set me up with her old work's next door therapist, she seemed so sweet, mom keeps repeating my name, Michael, Michael, Michael, Michael, Michael, Michael, she is showing no acqiesce, something reluctantly but without protest, maybe a little, i dont go for the unavailable, not my cup of tea, that's why i put mom on the hunt, i need more people hunting for her for me life goes on, i must remember that, thus i keep reminding myself, it's getting old, that annoying voice, Justin was overwhelmed by a competing bodybuilder Steve, Justin a kickboxer, but Steve ran 2 miles a day, worked out 2 hours a day, my preacher used to work out 2 hours a day, he had monster biceps, i want monster pecs, i likie them, mom says she ordered my food, i'll soon get stuffed on it, delicious barbecue chicken, the beans, bread, & cole slaw are good too, then im sad i forgot to use bbq sauce, mom. i missed her call & called her back, my cell lit up & said missed call, it was by me on the coffee table the whole time, thats savage, if deliverer isnt wearing mask, they dont get good rating, but they were, i texted mom, i saw him on the steps, i cant see the tv from the the table bc the curtain is open & the sun is leaking in, good thing it will soon be dim out, i love college football, i want to see everything, Ray turns the tv to the dogs at his house, the dogs beat Tennessee 44-21, that was the score when Liz asked am i watching it, Tn looked very sad, i hope the woman whom mom gets me isnt a player, i am not comfortable with them, but i may need that considering how green i am with women, i have a lot to learn about relationships, Pam was such a player, Sherry too, + Sharon, + Julie, + Megan in college, i tell mom to tell Ray to buy me a nice souvenir, she doesn't, that's too bad, i like gifts, Paula's roomie cooked for the doggs, i dont know what, id be buying them BigMacs & fries, the radio said they used to drink a gallon of whole milk a day to gain weight, i dont need to gain weight, since the deliverty is contactless, i cant ask anybody out, i wasn't ready for that!, the pianist'ss on said i never had a gf bc i never ask women out, we were in choir practice, i cant believe a f hasnt snatched me up with my good looks & personality, they couldnt in school bc 10th-12th grades i was gay bc of what i drove & what Dad said, you cant date in junk, junk was all i could afford, ive been writing articles 25 years, i feel like that's a good reason to turn into an articlist, i call it a diaryist, it could make me rich, i hope so, i had an Atlanta penpal a very longtime before i told her i was gay & she said she'd been suspecting it then asked me why the gays are sweet the lesbians mean, i said i also sense that, her name is Jody & her FB pic is her w a dog, i miss her, my cell died i saw when i went to text mom the score, im going to mail her this article, but i may not finish it as tired as i am, it's bc i already wrote a 2558 word article, Liz text am i watching the game, i said 44-21 then the game ended that way, i hadn't seen the text anew, my cell had been dead, i didnt know, i keep thinking sabout an article career, i like this type of writing, i also like reading it, i like being reminded, i need a new cell battery, i want something that stays charged, then i wont miss so many texts, i can work on my writing more, i went to the den, cut the tv to 2, & there was FSU/Notre Dame, it's on, score unknown, oh 28 fsu 17 :-[ im still watching it 9:33p. luv, michael house 3