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10.02.20 Be strong. Dad was 100% permissive. I smoked dope w him & Justin. Deer hunting+camping. Justin became a stoner. I became a drunk. I dont remember a lot of his drinking. Dad like George Clooney always had a beer in his hand. When Dad & my step mom dated, they smoked a lot of dope. Their trailer in Granny's backyard. When they died, they had a HUGE doublewide on Lake Hartwell. When i was in a coma, Dad ODd. He loved pills. So i guess it was that. Im addicted to my pills. IN AA, we were all rednecks but 1 BEAUTIFUL blond on pills. I didnt understand her till i got addicted to my pills. This morning, i filled my case. Tomorrow, i see you. I think Justin was on pills, which are rigged VERY addictive. You remember how rambunctious i was without my pills. I prefer being stoned. News said many consult to narcotics bc of the price. I wish i had tobacco & thc to go without pills just as an experiment. 2.14.93, i unbuckled and prayed for death i think bc i needed meds. I daily advertise our bookstore, nearing a cruise. Then the next q may be a cruise, there are markets i havent tried, but forums in libraries is enough to keep me busy, classifieds free at newspapers are countless, so im not going to buy ads, but that could be more lucrative. I like law writing then sharing it on my ministry. I often tell them about our bookstore too. I love you hillbilly!, Michael We get to see each other tomorrow! Im so excited. Nobody cares for me like u. With meds in me i became nonviolent. I think you've been busy. The sequel im working on is called NOTES TO THE WOMAN I LOVE. when i unbuckled and prayed for death, i was sad what Dad said 23 months before. You cannot date & drive junk. Junk was all i could afford. Now im building our royalties to millions. U get $1m if it's $2m.i think high school contests will be key for billions. If every high school in the world is competing for a new car, i think we'll make billions. Our bookstore may do it! But we need to stay together. I wish lulu would pay weekly, but quarterly will be bigger checks for bigger adventures. Thats if my current avenue does the trick. I need a break. Todays fri. Ill be on the road tomorrow, thinking up forums. Ill write down churches & look for their prayer lines. Ill write stored. Dad was a bookworm. He bought his books at Target & Walmart, usually john grisham. Work on self. Build up a nest egg. Technologies mess up your focus. Be a doer. Dont procrastinate, blame, excuse, or stop. Sleep is important. Eat nutritionally. Be respectful, patient, holy, satisfied with God, helpful, sacrificial, & unplug. Be balanced. Be productive. Help the homeless, get good advice, ask good questions, smile, give water to the homeless, memorize Scripture, take care of yourself, decompartmentallize, accomplish, spread love, be safe, social distance, wear your mask, pray for the Trump's, have an honest conversation with GOD, get close to God, prioritize, adversity helps you see where you went wrong, dont sass your elders, no justice no peace, i Love Hungry Man chicken fried chicken, dont clash, look at yourself from other shoes, change is inevitable, make advancements, trust God, healthy flesh wins saying Jesus is wrong, dont feed negativity, only speak highly of GOD, going the wrong way isnt how you get something right. I love you, Michael Shame makes darkness more appealing, guilt makes you want to hide, use anger as a constructive energy, family members know you best, believe in GOD with full confidence, dont get involved with the wicked, pray me & SUSAN 's bookstores have very many wordwide bestsellers 2020-2070. Ask the right questions, take God's word for it, dont try to get by without GOD, what your kid sees you do now could denunciate ANYTHING you ever ever say, now is a good time to get started, get your preacher's input, the less time you have on earth, the less you can bless GOD, there are so many blessings in holiness, have a good level of communication with God, when you wrong 1, retribution is coming, I love you, Michael We should get there at 1p if we leave 10a. 1st, mom has a haircut. I sense politics. Dt's way of making more people wear masks. Politicians in family makes me suspect politics. Dad’s manipulation was you cant drive junk & date. Topics were collected till 3p. Stocks falling with dt sick. Lazyboy over balcony. dt mild symptoms not bad. Biden scares me with his inconfidence. My prophecy; dt will win. Tv dinners rule. Tests fallible? My repossessed home is often thought of. Royalties to pay our rent would be champion. So inspired to market bc the more we're known, the more we sell. Cereal was condemned by my dr. Penalty mail i overdid it. 6, 2, 10 is my new mail times. 3rd party checks will be our currency. 50% u 50% me. Lawyers are needed. Marketing is more needed. But fri im always fatigued. Independent marketing, i like rhinking up my own. Woke mom w dt news, that hes sick. Thc+vape, hook me up, pen 2 tokes a night, Eager to publish tpcs after im through, thinking them up 33 more mins, we need to win the Lottery, Gambling isnt a sin & you cant stall your day of death, Dt success- our success, My ex had 4 kids, our 1st day together at school she wore a miniskirt, th 4 kids were 30 y/a, Depressed about girls tbi, i was sad junk was all i could AFFORD & Dad said you cant date in junk, All i could afford was junk, Blowing off the patio WAS VERY HATED till i got used to it, Rehab exercises= chores, they were just alike, Les Gave me rides from athens to athens, so granny made me ride w Billy who drove by my house, Ray & mom shacking up, i dont know if theyll 1st marry, Me & u shack up, but im pribcipled, id rather marry, mom funding, Always told we'd meet, everyone said id meet you, Dt covid 19 not coronavirus, is there a difference, Dt son had covid19, Cant see tv menu, it sux!, i think u r the 1, Pray i get my glasses today, Mom is getting me some socks, most are dress socks, Steve Wilkos was switched to after i tired of phil, Psychologist said i was raped, suppressed memories, No ldt, lie detector test, but i think Justin did, I like ur hair, let's Go to the bar, Mom woke & opened th door, I love Lifetime, Our pool table blocked for virus, Wait till 8p for 498, Happy bost paper, i was happy to see our bookstore has many paper books, The more advertising, the better, advertising tp 5m will make $1m, College energy placing ads, i see it working out, I LOVE SUSAN cheapest most appealing, 3rd party checks buy ads?, Links w book are available, 82 ebooks are out there, Mom coughing savagely, Think dt will win, vote for jb, Ask mom is she ok, she says shes nauseous, Emotional, you know me, I want a lie detector to rent out, Steve bc tired of phil, Pile of blogs saved up for you, Mom just said lunch made her nauseous, My TV dinner was good Ur wayward pinky is grotesque. After elaborating, do forums, I love diarying, Plan to diary on road, Wish to smoke, Used to dip hawken, Was a redneck, Like collards, Get salad every time we eat out, Voting for loser, X porn dream & prayer, I love you, Michael If i make millions as an x porn star, i could buy primetime commercials worldwide on 100% every tv network reaching billions, making billions for more ads, every classifieds paper & Web, billions for my ultimate dream, a 2k passenger cruise ship fully fully stocked. Ill pay u to nurse me. A board of marketers could be improvising my ideas, teens competing for a brand new corvette. U have to be between 14-18. Since my fam was most popular, i sold the most oranges. When paula & lisa came to get them, paula put her cigarettes in her front pocket. I was embarrassed though i was smoking lisas butts, she only smoked half her cigarettes. When Justin was taking me to college, i was buying Camels. I was drinking Papa's moonshine till the news told how unsanitary the makers are. Remember the bet we had? 1st fish? I caught the 1st turtle. I LOVE SUSAN! 10.03.20 Packed big suitcase, had to switch to plastic bag, found deo, bistro shutdown, 1nc they seated friends b4 us though we were 1st, since dt got covid, he probably wont win, gps is foing, mom had a haircut appt, i change shoes, i take my cane, worked on Instagram blog, next trip is mom to Alabama, i ate my Subway, excited about seeing Dave, dt is in the hospital, im getting better at publication , im a Democrat, i love the mission field, i got the mail, Jim said hes 1 day closer to death, i aaid sweet release, i got 1 bags out the car, told mom her hair is beautiful, i put a change of clothes in a bag, dont let anger get the best of you, take out trash, put in trash bag, mom takes a 15 min power nap, but i cannt wake her till i shake her foot 1 billion times in 30 mins, i need a shrink, we just talk, i miss Monk, i take CDs then find theres no CD player I love you so much!, Michael 10.04.20 What a darling u were, tucking me it. 3:47a, i showered, fearful to awake u & shawn. I love going West to see u. It's so splendifious. I think me & mom r headed back today.bi didnt get to read my book. Its good. Lots of research. Mom so snored. I almost got in trouble calling you fat sue. It was fun being around 1 2 yrs my sr. That hasnt happened since Bible study when i lived in Largo. When shawn brings u over, i want to eat crabcakes at Jack & Harry's. Mom is tired of coronavirus. I wanted to market us the whole time we were her. Being your husband thats my responsibility. Your body evidences keto. I wonder if im gay. What i said about my shrink is true. Mom daily spanked me. But im thankful for it. It made me a lover of discipline. I love prosperity vids. Roger got me hooked on them. His bro owns the patent on video poker, is Bill gates buddy, & is a billionaire. He drives a brand new chevy blazer. I called him with a pc prob & like insurance we fixed it on the phone. Love, Michael This weekend was few & far between. I worry about Dave. I wish i could accommodate him more.I like shawn. We talk well. As i listen to spiritual growths & self helps, im becoming a better man for you. The vape was so nice. I wish you were mine. Im not as inexperienced as i come off as but out of touch. I think mom trusts me more with you than anybody. I get the feeling shes been considering that now that rays in the pic. Old movies have always been Dave's thing & im a news buff. Im splitting my royalties w u. Our. News is comely. Marketing is something i want to master. After we're billionaires, well hire the best marketing team in the world. Getting the nack of it is what will make me lucratively masterful. Bff is what u r yo me. Please youtube shai's if i ever fall in love. Nobody takes better pics than us. As i look at us, i can think of no better looking image. Pain hurts. But it's easier if you dont dwell on it. Mom likes you. I want to be with you. I am in love with you, Michael 10.04.20 Take meds at 8a. Go to den. Susan & shawn on fold out. I walk with my cane. Sh & su talk social sites. Mom getting ready. Will mail me & su's book to 498+32 classifieds. I want my glasses. I say i am getting leopard glasses. I tell su & shawn my 30f barber knows i wanna be a porn star & it's been 8 yrs. I say ill find out if shes a swf. Su slept w her head under the covers. Ppl take turns going to the bathroom. I bag mmy dirty clothes. Coffee. I dont get lost this time. Decided to split royalties on I LOVE SUSAN with su. Careful with sh in the pic. We all watch the news ABOUT dt. Good coffee. Cv spreaded in Whitehouse. Democrats r said to set out to crumble dt from the very beginning. Pence is said scarier than dt. Thinking about my 30f barber. Mom said behave. 30f knows about my 8 yr deficiency & hope to be a porn star. Thatll make the funds to advertise the bookstore. Me & susans? Yes, but im just gonna advertise our book I LOVE SUSAN that makes .43 selling for .99. If we sell 1m of them, well make .43×1m.. ÷2, i want to[ make her rich for what she did for me. They look at a video w spiders for therapy. Ive not seen it. Let them have their fun. Mom tells of Glenda's releasing a spider then another. Talk of Joel Osteen closing his church to stranded. Mom asks sh why Pluto was debunked. Pray i get my license. Pray Cat & i go out. Go to ds. Sh & su organize the fridge. Su tells d to eat more yogurt. Su says theyre cleaning out the fridge. I tell su mom said she loves her. Mom leaves the crowded kitchen. I say i love biscuits & gravy. I say hardees rules. I put me & su's pic on Instagram & blogger. Mom shows d some meals. I geet kenny' s beer. Mom talks about the attractions she likes. Talk of businesses going out. Mom invites su to stack boxes. I invited her to come watch me the weekb c vvvvvvvv:: im home alone, mom doesn't want dt sick just to go away, announce the man to get su is a lucky man, dt's conditions bad, 1 is critical of a journalist, i say & look at her earrings, im hushed, su looks so keto, talk of eating food ppl breathe on, watching news, cnn, dt is said to lie to himself, millions are said infected, su is setting the table, i say shes a keeper, and great cook, talk of the ride back not being as long to here, chance we can go out to eat, i say im social, mom says shes not, talk of local bread, su tells d he needs MORE eggs, i tell su i havent had a meal this good in 5 centuries , 10.05.20 Mom says su has the bag w the book, news says masks are futile, i send 499 emails to state bookstores & only 17 demons, i wish i could find my book, i set the alarm to mass mail, getting ready to be with you, miss my glasses, have an expresso, 499 mass mail planned, as a Sophomore, i ran with the Seniors, why ain't i a movie star?, i want to audition, i need an acting agent, i worked on my bio coverstory, getting up so early makes me nap through the day, Dr. Phil is doing catfish, im head over heels for you, i wish we had a TV on our balcony, ill invest all my royalties on the 80 books on ads, i eat gummy balls, i need to wash clothes, i pray to be an x not xxx porn star, i want to be an investigative reporter, i want to date a waitress, i woke up, i need to do more forums & classifieds, i want to move in w u w my ssi, mom is always coughing, i think dt is playing politics, mom 63 ray 73, i love Miller Lite, i check the mail 4p, i place classifieds in different counties, i want to hook up, i want to vape thc, Jeff, Dad, Dan, & Papa's screaming gave me ptsd, 90 day fiance is tonight, i love the stuff u gave me, nobody realiEs how painful 225 rejections were, i wanna finish my college, but $1000s in royalties will make up for it, rum/lemonade were good, i take cat naps, i took a 2 hr nap at Dave's, i love OWN, im going crazy w/o my glasses, i repeated Dr. Phil by telling mom she wants to hook up more than companionship, i want both, im emotional, FBI followed me as Justin ran from the law, i need a manicure, i miss W Florida, i was a drunk teen, i want a psychiatrist, i want a spiritual growth, now that i get meds in the mail i dont get to talk to sweet chelsy, mom gets very much delivered, i want to hook up, i need my book, i check the suv 1 more time, i look EVERYWHERE for the book. I LOVE SUSAN! Susan House? Hallelujah! Mom just said u r mailing my charger, tb, & book. PRAISE the Lord! I am reading Stephen King right now. THE TALISMAN. Former Grammar teacher. Vast punctuation. You redeem my soul. I look at ur pic & remember the .001 second i saw your head, bobbing, the back. Right then i knew u were the 1. 2.09, 3.05, 3.13. I found how much joy heterosex ouus when i was 31. Her hus was a great guy, but abusive. I was raised by very opinionated Granny. Everything everything got her 2 cents. I just said i love you sending my clothes, charger, + book. Then i go oops!- mom goes what? I go shes my cousin. She goes i love her too. Shes my cousin. I repeated what she said at Jack and Harry's. That ray needs to take her around the pond & explain you're her cousin. I was certain of feb 9 & mar 5+13 were coming. Ive never felt so much solace as the 3 sec i looked in your eyes. Im so excited about getting the mysterious scroll book in the mail. To get more familiar w punctuation ill keep reading Stephen's. Mom is hooked to ray. Im hooked to you. Michael I dont want to mix meds. I am against that though i do mix my depokote & synacot, U & i get along. I feel a new happiness with u, well. We llike & dislike the same things,,, people. I need a debbit card. I set the 3rd mm alarm 9:30p. Mm= mass mail. 1320 is the ave propositions a day. I think im getting bifocals. Possible businessmen could buy our whole bookstores for $5m. Mom makes 65 a year. 55% is my battery. We'll soon be grandparents age. We need to start grandparenting. Justin so loved jacob his son. His mom wouldnt let him see him. I want to kiss u. Jacob calls him, Justin, Justin. Justin made his bed. He was collecting panties of his lovers. Looking forward to library book when it finally gets here. I LOVE u so much, Michael I want to YouTube my bookstore, i am suggesting another avenue of publicity, Granny banned pics when i was in worst condition, i have some wheelchair, Unmedicated i ripped my graduation vcr tape, animosity, Donna has a copy, when i stopped my wheelchair, she goes what is he doing? Donna got me my 1st job at Sonny's when i was 14 2 yrs, illegal, but Pa H was powerful, I was v bewilderingly-ferociously perplexed to see Shawn but like his care, im scared of u, Punctuation is Stephen King's talent, mom is critical of actors, Thc rules, Justin's pregnancy scare rocked his world, 1st neg 2nd pos, Black f watching me & Michelle fool around in her bed in her bedroom i think it was a deal, I lied about the prison minister as i told him about me & a f, i told his churchy wife just like he said i stuck my hand up her shirt, Let sleeping dogs lie, i cant, Mom skipping lunch, oh ueah she said i have Greek salad in the fridge! Bbq supper. I daily fall deeper in love with you, Michael 10.06.20 I need more ambition. But im not sleeping well Im watching jj; judge Judy. I found young black trey is cool & owns my barber shop. 1 of rhe most fulfilling things i ever do is reading. Itd be fine if that were a 40 hr a wk job. I tripped near the pond, dragging a toe. I had on my mask. I got winded. Reading gives me an inner peace.i have 90% battery. Cat said going out with me sounds like a plan. Shawn said im not an actor bc i dont live in California. I miss southern living, fishing & camping. All night fishing on the pontoon. Cat is very meticulous. When i was 31, an abused wife took advantage of my body by getting in my lap 2:30a. When i see women, i see their beauty. Granny h was very authoritive. So was her dad. So was mom's dad. I told Cat how sweet you are. Mom & ray rebel us. Tamala did a show on that. People against marriages that went beautifully. Im usually on Dr. Phil, but jj right now, i look like i have a flat top. I was scared i left my cane at the glasses shop. I didnt. My glasses were definitely made for reading. I get the most peace reading. I stumped my toe with my shoes on. I want to go to the beach. Reading. Im reading Stephen King. OCt7 230a kidney call. It was a huge rush. Since i havent had sex in 8 yrs, my urine smells horrendous. I need a best man at our wedding. Turned on the tv. The news about st cv, coronavirus. Looking forward to mom's wk in ala. Her vacation is my vacation. Cv vaccine needed. Millions are dying. Like it Cat agreed dt was NEVER sick. Both us are suspicious of of politics. Dt says dont be scared. But look at the millions dying! Votes r his hope. Votes r all 1st termers priority. Killed a cup of milk. It went down immediately. I miss u! Want Liz to visit. We love the beach. Dt needs focus on cv, coronavirus. Biden dt debate next wk. I cant wait! Dt preparing w facts. He is a whiz bucket. Jb needs to be more prepared this time. I didnt like his last. Dave likes Shawn more than me. He won't tell u i love u. Wish i had thc. I absolutely love that stuff. Todd said California smokes pot like cigarettes. U & i need to get together. I want to hook up. Ma knows she & ray r unprincipled. I told her unprincipled corrupts. Need to publish this diary. I want to fill my bookstore w diaries. Dee https://www.instagram.com/p/CFm_0TkB7tx/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link https://instagram.com/stories/mar2.75m/2411739552023429542?utm_source=ig_story_item_share&igshid=o0hyhycr4nfo