May 30

i live in Brevard County, Mom ordered food off the Web for my vacation, + coffee, she is very nervous about abandoning me as if im a teen again, i havent seen her this anxious in a long time, probably bc im so clumsy, i cover my near falls, there's talk of wedding bells, dont say anything, my chest looks esp buffed in my Live Generously tee, i think i got it when mom made a donation, i think we were in Largo, i think it was such a sweet family & the mom was on the front porch, i dont remember much about that, i love southern vernacular, it takes me back to my younger days, but i dont love it as much as i used to, i also love country music, im writing in my pink notebook, it came in today's 1p delivery, im so thankful i know you, we are 2 peas in a pod, i cant find when & where the debate is, but i wont walk to the television to see it, im too bsuy working on my notes, so i chose to watch th news on television, im eager to see President Elect Donald Trump do his wonder, i feel like he'll be very, very, very, very prepared, i know he has it in him, i thought about.... (on self) that is 100b times, i am very acquainted with it, i do it all the time, naughty me, the best gift known to man, lol, im my best man, Taboo2 belonged to Jack's sister, i didnt know girls were like that 12m, it amazed me, ive never been in a serious relationship, im very excited about my me time, a whole week alone, i know it wont take long to start missing mom, but i am more eager for the aloneness, i told mom to tell me what to eat, thatll be on the phone, im not used to making my own decisions, i am sickly pliable, ive been in trouble with the police 3x, wreck+evicted+community service, i was a wild child, my shrink said bc mom spanked me so much, i love gay shows, they have an appeal, i didnt watch them till i moved to fl, Granny was in control of the television then Papa did westerns i want to hook ^, it'd be perfect, now is a perfect time, i havent had a better occasionremember i need much foreplay, i have found that times past, i lost stimulus w Sherry bc there was 100% no foreplay, we Never even kissed, i foirgott o tell my dr that im going to try to finish my book before mom returns, the 1 you mailed, it hasnt got me interested yet, i was already interested in Stephen King, Stephen King reads 74 books a year i dont think right now is a good time to travel, what with coronavirus & all, mom needs to pack, its 8:21p & she leaves 7:30a, then we watched Ratmond, then she went to bed at 9, i hate structure in ALFs, Sandpiper & Peachtree sucked!, graduation day i was so blissed i was ina daze, it wasa haze, i like home more, facilities arent my cup of tee, but college dorm was cool, i liked it, ive been reading & writing all day to boost my IQ score, im doing it all the time, i love reading, always have, my IQ is what matters the most, more than college degrees, President Elect Donald Trump told white supremacists to stand down & standby, they greatly support him, they get donations they give him, they also vote for him, President Elect Donald Trump has much support, esp big businessmen, they both have business minds, Presidential Nominee Joe Biden is more worried about coronavirus , i think coronavirus may be what gets Presidential Nominee Joe Biden elected, my doctor said homosexuality is a lifestyle, he charged $300 to say im depressed!, but am i gay? should i frequent gay bars? i would if it werent for coronavirus, i wanted a blood test to determine for me $300 he said, "You're depressed."! that bothered me, i felt jipped, it made me think about being a dr, i dont maintain stimulation w women, thats a problem, i used to be 100000000% opposite, as i make love to them, i feel a softness, i was turned against women my sixteenth birthday, i saw f as enemies, 15 more yrs it kept on till Sherry, she showed me how much fun sex with women is, Presidential Nominee Joe Biden doesnt have as much appeal as President Elect Donald Trump, he seems to lack confidence, Presidential Nominee Joe Biden is in Barack's shadow, President Elect Donald Trump is extremely educated, blacks are against President Elect Donald Trump esp, President Elect Donald Trump has a problem with minorities, President Elect Donald Trump was coddled as a boy, his dad Never saw wrong in him, blacks like Presidential Nominee Joe Biden esp bc o Barack Obama bc Barack Obama is black, Presidential Nominee Joe Biden wants to use that power, Barack Obama could be more supportive, Barack Obama didnt support Presidential Nominee Joe Biden, he didnt think he has it, he seems to care for usa more than i thought, you dont hear much talk about Barack Obama & Presidential Nominee Joe Biden, cheerleaders & the homecoming court were in my icu room floor, we joked & flerted a lot at school, im very personable, i was a cutup, remember the gummy ball, i like making people laugh, Lisa threw away the visitors' list, i was daily pitching temper tantrums, she thought it angered me, but she said what will her bro drive, he had a shiny Ford Ranegr given to him, that put a gulf between me & Lisa, she often told me to take my meds church said no, church won, it wouldve been better if id listened to her, but Granny was also very against meds bc Dad was an addict, he was also a burnout, i love pot as he i think the church is for President Elect Donald Trump, i think President Elect Donald Trump speaks out for Christians, he just said 1 of his ppl is a Christian, that sounds appealing to me, i programmed my cell alarm for the fsu game, im so excited, i think itll be on television!, im going to have the television a week, mom was nonresponsive when i said i hope she lives in ala & me in mi, im so glad i have my charger, my cell is currently charging, ur a sweetheart, you ring my bell, Shawn opened my eyes i ask all women out now, i saw i need to get off the dating bench, i dont look bad, i dont look bad, lots of women would love to have me, im a head turner, i appreciate that, i mustnt waste any time, i wasted 15 yrs gay bc of my piece of junk it changed my life, my piece of junk filled me w animosity at f, Dad said i had to drive a shiny car to date, not a piece of junk, i want you so badly, it's a quaint, surreal feeling, when i looked at ur body...., i felt an unreal urge, you are my soul mate, i feel that in my bones, i knew it the 1st .0001 second i saw you, you make my heart pound, i need to find a traditional publisher, itd be nice to get all 82 books published, i want to draw royalties the rest of my life, the diary notes will never stop, they're fun, i like writing you, blogging, i want some thc, i love that stuff, but my last was mighty weak, but it beat nothing, i like tobacco to, you turned my inner light on, i didnt realize life could be so sweet, i came in touch with an all new me, im a new man, you've known me 8 yrs, thats long enough, how much longer do you want?, im a great guy, all my school loved me, im so glad you mailed my stuff, i was sweet to the maillady too, she asked is that too heavy, i so sweetly said no ma'am, i didnt know the box was you, i hope my eye appt helps my distance, i have trouble seeing it, distance sux, i have closeup, i love that, i just wrote a bp, i sent to instagram, i also blogged it,