May 30

Well, I went out to read my 10 pages after lunch, hoping to see Stephanie. I was going to ask her out; tell her I want to take her to eat. her SUV was in its usual place-- but I never saw her. being gay since my piece of junk & asking a girl out is weird. since my piece of junk, I like men. but by the time I read my 10 pgs I never saw Stephanie. Stephanie was in the retired fire chief's condo; but I never saw her. then I realized it wasnt my timing... it was Almighty Creator God's timing. just like my Winder bishop didnt understand the difference between god & God, I saw today isnt the day. Have you ever been through a crisis? Maybe you're going through one now. my timing contrasted with Almighty Creator God's timing when Granny LIED my promised truck was a dream. pray I am restored-restored-restored-restored for all my losses. There are 3 important lessons we can learn in John 11 about how to hang on in times of crisis. Jesus gets word that his friend Lazarus is critically ill. Much to his disciple's astonishment, Jesus doesn't run to heal him, but stays for two days before leaving. When Jesus arrived in Bethany, home of Lazarus and his two sisters, He learns that Lazarus died four days earlier. Stephanie didnt walk to her huge SUV as I read my 10 pgs, so I didn't get to ask her out. I am gay since my piece of junk. I am attracted to men. 227 rejecters altered me. God's timing is always perfect. if Almighty Creator God wanted me with a woman, I wouldn't have been single 45 yrs. God's never early, never late, but always on time. Our timing isn't God's timing. For us, God's timing often feels like a long, desperate delay. I decided Almighty Creator God wants me to be a billionAire gay writing minister. 227/229 (99.126%) of the women I asked out rejected me. I just set my sights on Stephanie. God's perfect timing does two things: It grows our faith as we are forced to wait and trust in God and it makes certain that He, and He alone, gets the glory and praise for pulling us through. "My times are in Your hands ..." Psalm 31:15. Almighty Creator God told me to make my rejecters, the 227 rejecters, history. then I started reading gayChristian papers & realized Almighty Creator God wants me to be a gay writing minister. [More Maryland news] Who is Stewart Bainum Jr.? Maryland-raised businessman whose nonprofit is in line to buy The Sun has had second careers in politics, philanthropy. » I realized my homosexuality was part of Almighty Creator God's timing. now I pray for more gayChristian writing. my 227 rejecters sent on an all new detour I NEVER expected or prepared for. At the right time, God will provide your need. At the right time, God will deliver you. At the right time, God will rescue you. I realize God is speaking to this gay clan through me, to this gay clan through my experinces, to this gay clan through my 227 rejecters & that 1991 piece of junk I used to drive. At the RIGHT time. His time! Almighty Creator God showed me He wants me to be a gay writing minister with my piece of junk & the 227 rejecters that caused me soo much pain. Lesson 2: God's ways I our ways. I am seeing that everyday I look at my piece of junk, I am seeing that everyday I look at my 227 rejecters. now I must do Almighty Creator God's will. He used the piece of junk & 227 rejecters to show me where I belong. I never predicted the 227 rejecters. I waited till I was 20 to ask my 1st girl out. btw, we rented a movie from my aunt who later shot her robber. talk about timing. "For My thoughts I your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways," says the Lord. "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9. as I waited for Stephanie & read my 10 pages, Stephanie never appeared. Almighty Creator God spoek to me about my gayChristian writing. God has eternal perspective! God is the great "I AM" (Yahweh) who knows the past, present and future. And what do we know? Nothing really. Nothing compared to God. If I were Jesus, I would've healed Lazarus right away. But Jesus wanted to stretch the faith of His disciples who after His death would be the catalysts to taking the message of Christ to the world. They knew Jesus had the power to heal people — but to raise a 4 day old corpse? Come on, that's taking faith to a whole new level. Granny was a church secretary, Uncle Tip is a preacher, so is cousin Al, & I am finding I am a gay writing minister with a piece of junk, I am a gay writing minister with 227 rejecters. Lesson 3: God always has the final say. No matter how terrible and impossible the situation appears, how awful you feel, or how there appears to be no answer, no help, no hope, God will see you through because He and He alone has the final say. We put periods in our lives where God puts commas. We think it's over, period: Our marriage, our family, our job, our health, our future. But God puts a comma in those places because it's not over until He says it's over. Lazarus was dead and decaying for four days in that tomb. That's more than a period, that's an exclamation mark! But it ain't over. God put a comma in that place. And Jesus raises Lazarus from the dead, his organs functioning, the rotting skin is made new again. And Jesus will take what has died in you and raise it from the dead! He will see us through the crisis, not just barely surviving, but victorious. Victors, not victims. Champions, not chumps. Winners, not whiners. Stop putting periods where God puts commas. The world put a period after Jesus's crucifixion and death. But God always has the last say. On the third day, Sunday morning, God raised Jesus from the dead and He's alive! "O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting? ... But thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ." 1 Corinthians 15:55-57 Since my piece of junk & the 227 rejecters, I am very uncomfortable with women. at my 16th birthday, Dad said you cant date in junk. junk was ll I could aford. Because of Jesus Christ, death and the grave no longer have the last say in our lives. Jesus has the last say. And because He lives, if you trust in Him and put your lives in His hands, you're going to live too! Stephanie didn't appear during my 10 pgs, so God could talk to me about bing a gay writing minister! michael"DEE"house Michael House fite4thewrite6@aol.com