Wanting to talk to God is your decision, after I turned 16, my tbi daily felt nearing, I knew I wasn't blue collar, but I couldn't afford college, my parents wanted me to learn lessons on my own, that's why I was promised a truck then got told it was a dream, the school of hard knocks, Granny laughed VERY hard at my pain, so I sought her pain, used my 6 month coma tbi to keep Dad on a guilt trip only drugs could allay, then his dealers killed him, it was something Granny called her worst pain ever, while I saw mission accomplished I saw it wasn't worth the loss it costed, I realized there self denial & acceptance with humility are phenomenally worth it, I know I am right about that bc of the pain it took to learn, this pain is what helped me decide to be a writing minister, it's where I want to invest the rest of my life, children need positive thoughts & positive influences, the more I work on my ministry, the better I feel, the more readers I have, the better I feel, pray they're all blessed, it turned a light on when I started this ministry, the more God you have in your memories, the happier you are if you were already in the Way, if you're a sinner & God delivers you, it's painful & worth it at the same time, it took my 6 month coma to snatch me out Satan's grip, you need time with God, persecutors hate that, they're jealous of your relationship with God, God knows how to get dramatic results, get fired up in God, you get more for your life in God, God is worth every debt, introduce the world to God, Jesus didn't come to condemn the world, Jesus even ate with sinners & tax collectors, kitten videos are adorable, liars get themselves busted in court bc lies dont hold water, nothing is new to God, hunger will make you a liar, Satan has a way of justifying your wrongs, most of us like to think of ourself as honest people, don't let other's wrong justify your wrong, multitasking decreases your output, a big presence will make you feel a stage fright.
May 30
dream career is writing ministry 2k words a dy 10k every fri proofed sat then mailed to my literary agent sat. who finds the $10 e-pamphlet 300 buyers every wk, then sell the pamphlet on 1m addresses then buy me & Andrea an inner city downtown condo. my spiritual will be fed by my study. i still need social unfortunately. that's fed by st pete senior center. but i often get in trouble by ordering a big black beautiful coffee. i sleep 8-3. last night, i slept 8-1, 5 hrs,so i will lay in bed till 3... 7 hours sleep, which is best. my writing 2k words a day gives me the motive to continue my richard simmons exercise, which are why im always craving sugar, something I get very little of. please pray I get a job freelance writing 2k a day $3k a week funding all andrea & my expenses. most important every $1 i get i give the nearest Christian publisher $.20. tithes are $.10. the richest ppl in my family were the most miserable. look at great papa jb, the town owner. he gave ...
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