The wife of an old pal told me how much he had changed, how big of a pill head he had become, then he started showing disinterest in me, I realized his condescending my ministry just wasn't him, his papa owned his town, my great papa owned my town, I think he went carhopping with me 1 time, we often stayed on his houseboat over the weekend, my tbi put me on a new realm in a new life, new life means my life completely changed, but I changed for the better he changed for the worst, the whole time he was married he was 1 of many husbands determinedly telling me to stay single, it makes me want to stay where I am, I can feel their sincerity, my preacher said marriage is the toughest challenge he ever had, the rest of my preachers seemed to feel the same way too, I want to get old doing what I am doing now, writing about myself to give addresses things to preach about, I like applying proverbs I think of, I like making earth a better place by making its people better, crime tv is a fun show to sometimes watch maybe bc my dad was always talking &, or doing crime, he was very often saying there is the caught & the uncaught, God knows what everyone did. Ask Adam & Eve, Dad was a miserable person off drugs & when he wasn't experiencing personal gain, Christians are happy people, be a Christian by representing God, live your life in Christ, the unGodly like to put up a show of happiness, but it's fake, when I was popular & had more friends than I could shake a stick at, I was most miserable, I'm praying to be a worldwide bestseller 2021-2071 writer and teleminster to win the most people to heaven, but I already know that will be very hard, to be happiest I need to live little reading & writing n my ministry for the 8 churches I focus on, but I think 1 resigned, cool cool, I can't be concerned with that, the most important thing to me is texting my thoughts, I add the passages to my cousin's blog & to my bpbook blog, I don't do well with people who think they're too good
May 30
dream career is writing ministry 2k words a dy 10k every fri proofed sat then mailed to my literary agent sat. who finds the $10 e-pamphlet 300 buyers every wk, then sell the pamphlet on 1m addresses then buy me & Andrea an inner city downtown condo. my spiritual will be fed by my study. i still need social unfortunately. that's fed by st pete senior center. but i often get in trouble by ordering a big black beautiful coffee. i sleep 8-3. last night, i slept 8-1, 5 hrs,so i will lay in bed till 3... 7 hours sleep, which is best. my writing 2k words a day gives me the motive to continue my richard simmons exercise, which are why im always craving sugar, something I get very little of. please pray I get a job freelance writing 2k a day $3k a week funding all andrea & my expenses. most important every $1 i get i give the nearest Christian publisher $.20. tithes are $.10. the richest ppl in my family were the most miserable. look at great papa jb, the town owner. he gave ...
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