i disagree w God's grace but am so fortunate to have it i prefer writing about laws. My ga church is legalistic. Though the Bible says it's what's in you that matters it is all about the surface--- clothes, makeup, & jewelry.
Power is out at home. I'm at Susan's. Im going crazy for the news.Im 26 minutes from my church, but i didnt bring church clothes. I am a dog. Leaning on God's understanding takes humility. As a Christian, you find it more providential to put God's opinion above all others. My legalistic church had the strongest feel of the Holy Ghost. My book started out as a sailboat book, but my time at the harbor i found houseboats the most attractive. Andrea makes a huge deal out sailor fellowship, but i make a huge deal out an old friend's, Lansinaing's?, Larry? Leroy? Something like that, houseboat fellowship. Lots of people live in their houseboat. I dream of living in a houseboat at the marina, but Susan says that's bc i aint come to know the feel of the wind filling the sails. Caregiver Susan foesnt want Andrea to know where i live, so our connection has been thwarted. I was available to go in Andrea's, but she made me stay in the van. Maybe bc i t I ld her she cant go in mine bc by law shes awarded half everything i own. I drove junk. I know about relationships! Prenup! Prenup! Prenup! At the marina, she often refers to a sailboat as her boat, but her actual boat is at Cape Cod. I am eager to explore her hometown, New England. I found i dont belong in the southeast especially among church girls. That's another twist of fate.
Im saying this by virtue of the fact Andrea is Coptic. She is carried away with how sweet everybody is. I was in the church 1-16 then lying church secretary Granny H caused me to turn my back on God March 91 to my tbi Feb 93. It was then, my One on one encounter that i decided to get right with God. In rehab, 1994, after a host of surgeries, i decided to get right with God. Then my psychologist, which the legalistic church laughs at. Like uncle at home, said i had a college degree in my head. I read 16/6 18 months. The most! most! most! fun!
He, my dr. made $50 an hour in the mid 90s just talking to me. I want to make all my money with this book. Since the marina, i have grown to love houseboats.
'That dont matter! Tonight we're having a feast!' That thought just came to mind. It is what i said in a play at Sunshine. It took 100s of recuts in practice to get to the play in front of about 100 each of 2 days. Thats when i decided im a writer not actor. Thats especially firm since i became a Christian writer. Now i share my church sermons, Bible papers, & walk with Jesus.
My Ga church was big on football. Every service we men gathered in wonderful fellowship, chatting about sports. I like football bc the night of my tbi i was leaving Garrison Hearst & Andre Rison's apartment. I also like it bc on the Warriors i was wingback & noseguard.
I am in deceased retired rocket scientist David Smith's adjustable bed. All around the house is untold storm damage. Jesus spared me from so much loss!
May 30
dream career is writing ministry 2k words a dy 10k every fri proofed sat then mailed to my literary agent sat. who finds the $10 e-pamphlet 300 buyers every wk, then sell the pamphlet on 1m addresses then buy me & Andrea an inner city downtown condo. my spiritual will be fed by my study. i still need social unfortunately. that's fed by st pete senior center. but i often get in trouble by ordering a big black beautiful coffee. i sleep 8-3. last night, i slept 8-1, 5 hrs,so i will lay in bed till 3... 7 hours sleep, which is best. my writing 2k words a day gives me the motive to continue my richard simmons exercise, which are why im always craving sugar, something I get very little of. please pray I get a job freelance writing 2k a day $3k a week funding all andrea & my expenses. most important every $1 i get i give the nearest Christian publisher $.20. tithes are $.10. the richest ppl in my family were the most miserable. look at great papa jb, the town owner. he gave ...
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