Please pray I get a debit card I keep full with donations made to my newsletter. That is my dream career. I'm currently reading a self-help called “CONSCIOUS.” It's a book about leadership. I am most, utmost, furthermost, record, maximum, greatest, entertained by leadership books. Oddly, I have a servant’s heart. I am very, very worthy, admirable, outstanding, brilliant, exceptional, superb at taking orders. That makes me a worthy, admirable, outstanding, brilliant, exceptional, superb husband? Actually, I saw a talk show about wives who didn’t like their husband because he is so submissive. That is very, very strange. I don’t want a wife because two thirty nine letdowns were females, so females became unattractive. I think God is calling me to be a gay preacher. I identify more with the gays because I'm about fifty and I never had a girlfriend. That and all the husbands in my churches coveted my bachelorism. two thirty eight letdowns were after I began driving a piece of ...